what's wrong with me?

I don't know why I have this strange feeling again which is actually not what I want! that old feeling came to me. the word " love means letting go" what the not good which is a yuck feeling cause I ain't gonna let anything go. hahahah geli geleman.. talking about love..

another thing, I'm tired of having weird dreams because whenever I had them, I had to run as fast as I could to save myself from being eaten,abused or anything related . I think that's how I worked out actually. In my dreams lol. I also have dreams about my relatives a lot. school?but why? I don't wanna think about the past or the people from the past though.... hmmmm